Why does my grief takes the shape of poetry always? I can’t write about it anymore.
Why are poems only preserved. Why are these the only documents of my suffering.
Where do the screams go?
Most of the times when I am terrible, I scream.
I scream. Be it silently or on the top of my lungs.
Who is the witnesss of my misery, of my pain?
No one will ever know, how I will die with these screams inside me.
These screams that consume me.
These screams that compresses my vitals.
Will the walls of my room speak about my pain?
Or my bed side lamp will say?
I have struggled with this pain. I have been restless. I have been weary.
Who will be the witness of my pain?
How will anyone ever be able to compensate?

I realized that the world doesn’t stop.
So, I tried to pause mine.
It’s been a long time.
It’s been tiring to live alone.
I am so full of grief that this world doesn’t even half please me.
I am tired of writing also
These poems that you will never see.
The documents of my longing.
You will never know.
With empty hands
And a broken heart who do I cry my misery to?

I miss you, always.

Love is forgiving each other.

I don’t think any mistake is so big that it can’t be forgiven. Often people give up on people they love just because they have failed to reach their expectations or have done something wrong unintentionally or intentionally, because of their circumstances or what just felt right at that moment .

I want you all to forgive each other tonight. So that the love we have for others doesn’t get overshadowed by an ill feeling.

If Allah can forgive our so many sins why can’t we forgive our brothers and sisters?

One more thing, never make someone feel terribly guilty after they have done something wrong to you beacuse of their circumstance. I mean never make someone question their worth. When you tell that very person how bad she/he has done, never make them think that they have always been bad. One wrong thing doesn’t make someone a bad person.

Forgiveness is healing.

There are many good people dying to be forgiven.

I pray Allah makes us amongst those who forgive each other and I pray that he forgives us for our sins. Indeed, he is the most forgiving.

Ponder

There is always something to be grateful for. This world indeed is full of sorrows but still happiness creeps from the corner. It’s you choice whether to smile at it or not.

Who cannot sit with their griefs? Who can’t think of the bygones? But it is you that can allow those memories to fill your heart with a smile. Memories aren’t made to hurt you. They are supposed to heal you.

And that for your sorrow, He will not let a heart like yours down.

Trust the process.

Why

Why did you leave me on myself

Between nowhere and a crowd

Why did you leave me on my own

I’m about to fall, come pick up me.

You know, It hurts so bad

Like every cell of my body calling your name

You know how lonely it is

Just like a dark room where only silence prevails

Every night before sleeping I think of ours

I wish we had got Just one moment, just one glance.

I don’t have words that need to be vent out.

It’s my love suffocating me ‘cause you are lost.

Are you really lost?

You.

It might take me a thousand years to reach to you.

It might take all my life.

This love will still grow, this heart will never stop.

The colours you painted me with, will never let go.

The air that blows your name in me

The sky that shines upon me, will never let me forget a love like you.

When you were wrapped in white,

All reds faded away.

Your fragrance will walk with me till I take my last breath to join you in ground.

2.

If not in your true form then come in disguise.

Be wind or water, touch my skin or pass me by.

Be the night and soothe my soul.

Be the charm and never let me low.

Hear the fasten heart of mine.

Be the calm of my mind.

Just stay for a little while, be it in disguise.

Testimony of love.

Maybe this itching will stay forever in my heart.

This constant pain which disapproves to disappear.

Sometimes I want to run away from it, but mostly I feel like it’s the only thing you left me with.

I don’t have memories anymore. I see your face fading away.

Be in my eyes forever, I request.

This heart of mine calls you a thousand times.

Is that you taking my pain for a mili second when I call out your name and sigh?

Many a times I thought that this ache will subside, but when I don’t replace lonely with busy, I figure out that it still resides.

I’ll keep it safe till I die.

Shriveled heart

When my soul was deprived of your love, my heart started to wither.

When I felt your aura going away, my heart started to wither.

When I was deprived of your presence, my heart started to wither.

When I was deprived of your voice, my heart started to wither.

When my eyes were deprived of your sight, my heart started to wither.

When my existence was deprived of your being, my heart started to wither.

Now there is only a chip left.

Tell me if the lines meet somewhere, I will come there to replenish my heart and soul by your subsistence.

A place where we become infinite.

A star crossed lover

I had a little slice of heaven with me

He walked around smilingly

He had lit my soul.

I had a little slice of heaven with me

Who thought of us every time, I know

He had all that I ever wanted to own.

I had a little slice of heaven with me

Who talked so wisely

Spread his magic in every direction

He had made my heart dance

I had a little slice of heaven with me

Loving me wholly,

He was all that my world revolved around.

Now my little slice of heaven has his heaven.

From where he shines and never grows old.

And I sit here smiling and thinking of my little lost slice of heaven.

What a life! 👏🏻

I trapped myself in my own flesh,

Hiding away what it caused.

Never had I thought of becoming what i am now,

The happy place in me flew afar.

It rains like flood inside, but not a tear comes out.

My words float on heavy silence and a frightening emptiness surrounds.

I lost you and me beyond the bounds.

Uphold✨

Sing yourself songs of love.

Heal your heart with your own loving touch.

Gather the broken pieces of yourself

and stitch them with kindness.

Let the fragrance of love walk with you and let benevolence enter with every breath.

My forever🌹

A few years weren’t enough to love you.

We deserve more, more than a lifetime.

Your beauty had no boundaries and I’m sure than it has enhanced.

The smiles you shared are everlasting.

On an infinite land of beautiful gardens we’ll embrace each other, God willingly!

Won’t you fix me?

Looked and pondered upon the lines of my hands

Trying to see which line has come to an end.

I could not find one.

Now I know that you were not on the broken lines but on the heart.

It was you who kept it altogether. ♥️

Desperately waited for a birthday wish from six feet under.

I wonder whether every passing day takes me away from you or towards you.🌹

A call

Come my love come back to me
For the time of fall has left behind.
Come my love, come back to us
For the withered hearts need to be alive.
Come my love come back to life
For my heart that longs for your euphoric voice.
Come my love come back to life
As to fill this darkness with your light.
Come my love come back to home
’cause people you love need to quench their thirst.
Come my love come back to life
To bring you back spring has arrived!

Where do I find you?

Every time when I sleep
I see you alive there in my dream,
Giving me love that I have always wanted,
Spreading your magic in my dream world.
The real nightmare begins when I open my eyes.
The real heart ache starts when I don’t see you beside.
Whenever I go out I look for you
But Alas! I fail every time.
I know that you are gone
but my heart still denies,
My eyes look for you everywhere.
Look how unfortunate am I
that I don’t see you with my eyes
’cause now our meeting place is in the dark but still in the light

Time

When I could not save love
I tried to save memories
Little did I know time as a destroyer
It faded my memories
And then people called it healing.
I would prefer calling time a destroyer rather than
Saying that it heal wounds.

My arrival to home

No words will be said,
Tears scrolling down our cheeks will dictate our whole tale
The tale of unspeakable love and seperation
The tale of patience
Your presence warming my soul
Soon my fading into you
Your every breath feeding my hungry soul
Your smiling heart bringing life in corpse
Your magical gaze blooming my dead heart
You giving me pleasure of your euphoric voice
Looking at eachother with happy hearts
And then yelling out loud “we made it to home”

Come back for a night🌠

Let the night be ours
Where we will do our talk
Beneath the light of a thousand stars,
We will sing our love song
Let the breeze touch our face
For it may take all our pain,
Lets not count the stars tonight
But let our memories touch a new height
Let the world not worry and fight
Let everyone of us be at peace tonight
It is the night when we are together
Let our souls protect each other
Let our rotten hearts be alive
Because the night full of love has arrived
Tonight I got what my heart adores
And I wish of my happiness with you more and more
Lets now look in each others eyes
Because baby we haven’t got much time
Its just till the sunrise
Its just till the sunrise🌞

Back then you and now your memories accompany me.
Our love will never grow old.
It’s evergreen!🌸

My love❤

As I entered the room full of stars
I found you shining brighter than all
When I entered the room of lovers
I found you loving with all your heart
When I entered the room full of smiles
I found yours most beautiful and mine
As I entered the room of my memories
Only yours will remain there for centuries.

When you were gone

A thousand cries I heard
A thousand smiles it burnt
A thousand dreams shattered
A thousand hearts broken
This time i could not do the mending
Because love as a healer was gone.

My love for you reaches the dark depth of the sea
It goes high above the clouds
Deep inside the core of my heart it resides
But can you be found in any of these places?
Can my love reach to you where the air doesn’t reach?
It does, you know why?
Because love is inevitable, it happens to be everywhere

They say that It will pass

Three years have passed
but you are still in our hearts
our eyes are still weeping
our happiness is still sleeping

how can we live without you?
they say that we all meet there
but we can’t wait till that date

oh!I still remember your voice
which is still echoing in the ears of your choice
she is all scattered here
she is bearing a lot of pain

oh!your brown eyes
when remembers your son,he cries
oh!that beautiful smile
for what your daughter used to die

oh!this painful dole
doesn’t give relief to our soul
our life seems as dark as coal
oh!lord give us some hope!

Furq.♥️

From the farthest world I write to you
A letter without words
I would have told you how my heart aches for you
Only if I knew
I would have told you what difference it has made
But I don’t talk about the things which are beyond repair
I would have told you of my need for you
But i would not write it to you
Because I believe that the other heart too aches for our promised infinity

Ugh!

From gazing into your eyes to gazing the stars
From that warmth to the coldest heart
From the pure soul to the one with scars
From the one chasing dreams to the one now lost
All happened when when you were gone

To The One I Love

To the one I love,
I still stand at the door, waiting for you to come
I still sit on the bench and wait for you to come
I still smile looking at the moon thinking you too are looking at it
I still eat the same chocolate but the taste no longer is the same.

To the one I love,
My hands are still cold, but no one comes to warm them up
I still cry in the darkest part of the night, but there is no one to calm me down
I still have a lot to say, but no one is there to hear my thoughts
I still see your face, but only in photographs

To the one I love,
I still hear your favourite song, but now there is no one to accompany me
I still wait for my phone to vibrate, but It doesn’t light up anymore
I still wait to hear your voice, but it never reaches my ears
I still watch the starlit sky, but it no longer seems beautiful to me

To the one I love,
I still remember the words you said, but one day they will fade away from my memory
I still remember the time we spent, but now it is just a memory
I still remember what we dreamt of, but I can no longer be able to make them true
I know that we will meet someday, but I will never know the date of my arrival
My heart only knew how to beat but now it only knows aching for you
All I wanted was your love but I will no longer be able to have you close.

I KNOW IT ALL

I know that we are away
and i also know that we have much to say
I know,there are a thousand thoughts in your mind
I know we both are thinking about our lost time
But,i also know that there is nothing to fear
because i know that our love is growing day by day

I know that we have dreams,
i know that we have desires
But I also know that these desires will
light up the most intense fires

I know that you miss my touch
I know that you miss my smile,
but i also know that when we ll meet
we will erase all our miles

I know that it is hard
I know that your life doesn’t makes any sense without me,
But I also know the happiness of your heart that I am waiting to see

I know that life is short
I know that time is running afar
But I also know that the time will pause
when we ll no longer be far

I know it,I know it all!

Evening

On the bench of a park
I sit with my hands on my knees
I look at the pond, that is in front of me.

hundreds of fishes passing by
thousands of flowers on the bank side
The moon giving its charming light,
adorable looks the star lit sky

Behind the tree,sits a chirping bird
Maybe singing a beautiful song
or just praying to the Lord
to make its life happy and long

the fluttering winds,touch my face
and they softly lift my hair
they make me remember the old good days,
something scrolls down my face
maybe the merry tears

I stood up and walked away
after giving a final glance of praise!

LOVE

Oh! In my lonely nights
I look at the moon
And think about you
I can see that charming face of
yours shinning with the stars

I look down,then again to the moon
I see myself there with tears in my eyes
I looked carefully and saw an image of
you in my eyes

I was not sad
but overjoyed
to see you making my life
which was once spoiled

I knew that the days will become brighter
and will bring light in my eyes
I can see those eyes again shinning
which were once filled with cries

I wonder for how much time
will my happiness last
because I don’t want to see
my future as my past

I just stopped thinking about bad
I really want to remember the time we had
I thought of those days I spent with you
then i looked again to the moon
and now i see myself as your life
this is an imagination
that ends with a sigh!

THE MARVELS OF GOD

Nothing makes me more happier than the leaden path between the tall poplar trees.
I walk through the road, so does the slight breeze.
I step on the brown leaves fallen from the trees.
They make a crushing sound.

Nothing makes me more enlightened than seeing he beaming sunlight by the spaces between the leaves.

My soul feels pristine
By looking at Gods signs
They make me wonder,how more beautiful can life be

Oh!when i pass through the lake
And see millions of verbena
The view sets in my mind
And somewhere in it,it hides

The noise of the water
The sound of the leaves
The chirping of the birds
The murmur of the breeze
Can change into lotus-,the weeds

Seeing the sunset
makes the separate ones meet
And this view often comes into my head
When i lay looking at the stars in my bed.😊